The D.L.

This may not be the coolest idea I have ever come up with. This may not even be the most interesting or original idea I have come up with, but let's face it, right now, this is the most practical and vital idea I have come up with.

They say that if you make just one change a day, every day, in a month, your life can be substantially different, and in a year... well just imagine!

Don't get me wrong, so far things aint bad. 29 years deep and I have had a pretty sweet ride.

I have lived, learned, lost and loved. Nothing too off the beaten track, maybe some lessons learnt a bit tougher and a few losses a bit earlier than expected but all in all i'd buy a ticket and take this ride again.

So why am I doing this?

Because I recently decided to call the last two years of my life "The Arctic Quicksand Years" and in retrospect, as mysteriously melodramatic as that sounds (and who doesn't enjoy a little dramatic mystery thriller every now and then?) it reads more as "stale, empty and unproductive" to me.

I have read all the books, written the lists, visualized every detail, put it out there, wished on the new moon, bent like a pretzel, cleansed, detoxed and done everything short of inviting the God's to dinner for a little pep talk and pow wow about where the heck this is all going, what it all means and maybe ask whether they could just slingshot me from here to where I want to be.

But now it's time to get real and actually do something about it.

Radical change doesn't scare me. I have picked up and taken off into the unknown a few times and can honestly say I love that feeling of freedom. That, to me, is easy.

It was easy because each time I did it, I had no responsibility at all. No day job, relationship, rent to pay, kids, pets, nothing. Just me...
....and even though that feeling was amazing, just as amazing or maybe more so (at least to me) is meeting someone you love, being able to afford things you enjoy, having a solid crash pad and maybe a couple of furry kids to be stoked to see you when you get home at the end of the day.

Unfortunately some people call that "settling" and somewhere along the line you start to believe it and actually do that and before you know it, you realise that there is still so much you want to do and explore but this time you can't just take off into the unknown without losing many of the things you love.

I have never liked the idea of having to pick either true love or success. I don't believe in sacrifices and I don't believe that you have to wait til the shiz has hit the fan for change to happen.

I believe in synchronicity, the big picture, one love, no borders and making sure there's no shiz to begin with, in the room with the fan.

So here I am, glass half full, happy with a lot in my life and thankful for so much but brutally aware of the rest of the vessel that's yet to be filled.

Don't get me wrong, I am aware that I may never reach a point of complete and ultimate happiness and bliss (note: if I do you can totally cast me in bronze and rub my belly all you want), but I think I can get pretty damn close and that will be the only "settling" going on anywhere.

So my personal challenge is: How to have my cake and eat it too, one daily change at a time.
I am pretty sure what I want is not very different to what many people out there want, but just incase here's a little break down:

• To spend every day doing what I love and enjoy.
• To have a solid, loving relationship with someone who inspires me.
• Optimal health.
• To make a positive difference through what I do.
• To afford everything I need and also every now and again life's little luxuries.
• To live in a city that inspires me and supports my ultimate quality of life.
• To have a home base that I can come home to and love and entertain friends in.
• To be able to share my life with friends and family often.

So here goes. One year, one daily change at a time.